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Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

Saturday, May 23, 2009

finally,  back to blogging.
so much has happened, in the end smiles and tears leave me in a dilemma that this post shud be titled with sumthing sad, or sumthing happy. 
so i decide that dere will be no title at all :P ( the laziest n easiest way out, haina??)
njoing wid my friends n finding new ones.
having a bash, celebrating every moment at my bro's marriage , trying hard to forget what has happened 2 days back.
i danced like anything and i enjoyed like anything. made it sure that i don't leave anything undone, surprises for bhaiya n bhabhi.
that night when the "pheras" were scheduled, i can never forget that night.
Found a new friend who is a bit sad today :P .
enjoyed with bhaiya n bhabhi n family.
and had a great time with all the relatives together.
all cousins together , all grownups now, remembring the childhood memories.
visiting the ancestral house in lucknow was such a wonderfull feeling
n then in jammu too.
i was totally involved in my bro's marriage n that is the reason y i was out.
a frnd lost me, n a friend is in my list of the wonderfullest(:P, yea it's u chottu...) people i hav ever met....
now m back in indore.
n i think i have messed up my life too much now,
shud sit back n work,
plans ahead.
tc

PS: after reading this post, i think that dere is nuthin in it that makes it worth a post, but than next post will be a good one. 
m goin to sleep now take carezzzzzzzzzzzzz........

Friday, April 10, 2009

i wrote this when my lecture was going on.... postin it now



scribbled at 8/4/09 2:15 pm
ok!!!!
now m as sleepy as anyone can be, my eyes can't take it anymore.
2:15 pm 
D.S.P's class goin on n me sittin alone at the last occupied bench.
DSP's pakao lecture numbin my brain.
D teacher looks like a crocodile....
"i white crocodile"    **rather an albino crocodile**
Was not allowed in the exam, got a presentation due, nex wednesday,
Bunked no lecture today :P :P 
n now m as hungry as a ummmmmmm....dunno as a  what...bt very hungry

mann i miss dose school days when we used to sit together n throw chalks at the teachers (most of dem turnin at d right time n .....)
that window that used to give us the glimpse of d scenic beauty (the basketball court!!!)...
those tall girls with small skirts :D :D
those lunch boxes hidden under the books....
the relishing, mouth waterin, delightfulllll aloo ka paranthas....
and those gossips.
Those days when u had friends from the heart......
.
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"" woh lamhe firse yaad aane lage hain...
..dost or yaroon se door akele waqt bitaane lage hain...""

ahhh the teacher shoutin at the guy in front of my desk brings me out of the dream.....
good lord the lecture is over....
phew!!!!
now m goin home
goodbye mam
rather good riddance...
d first thing il do is
sleeeeeeepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

Friday, April 3, 2009

my new ride !!!!

well well well, finally i got one.
29 march 2009
i got my bike.
my own bike.
which i never thought i would get after 15 june 2007 happened.
But now i have  a sweety thats just for me...
and i can call it mine...
ahhh m fallin so much in luv wid u ....
k
i bought a pulsar 180 cc silver in color and with digital meter.
the one i had always desired.
now the one i care for...
mannn 
i got sum1 to b wid me now, when i am all alone...
:)
m goin on a ryd... tc y'all

Friday, February 20, 2009

a new beginning

Today a friend just told me to write something on my near death experience.
so here i go...


15 june 2007.

I had my final college practical of second semester. Still remember it was basic civil engineering and i was all blanck in the viva.
Came out. I had borrowed the bike from my roomie who was child hood friend and bhaiya.
Bhaiya got over with his finals a few days back and it was their final semester.
I called him, he told me they are in the movie "jhoom barabar jhoom". Sumit asked me if i can drop him on the way.
since it was raining badly we waited and left after 30 minutes.Talking about the examiner and all he told me to drive fast because next day we had the viva of c++.
Anyways his place was on the same road jus 2 km before my home.
We stopped in between to have paranthas.I loved aloo ka paranthas like anythin and that day don't know why it din't taste well.We ate payed and hit the road again.
i left him at his place.Then i was just 2 mins away from my home where i had an accident.
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i opened my eyes i saw my mum standing by my side and i closed my eyes again.
next tym i opened my eyes and i felt as if i was being shifted from one bed to another and then it started moving.
i could see the bulbs on and closed my eyes. I opened my eyes when the anesthesiologist asked me some questions like where are you from?.......
next time i opened my eyes again when something pinched my left palm very very badly.
i could easliy make out that something was going inside.
I don't remember much but next time i opened my eyes were when they were shifting me to my room in the hospital from the I.C.U
MUM DAD BRO and a few relatives were there.
i got scared because i thought that they gonna take a run on me for doing this and not wearing an helmet!!!!
But they all were behaving very differently to what i had anticipated.
Anyways the room was awesome.
single room with a refrigerator,an AC a color t.v with cable connection. The white walls were decorated with some paintings which seemed to be old enough to find 
a place in the city museum.
Any ways I examined myself. my left arm was fractured and that was all i thought is damaged in my body.
The door opened and a fella with heavy specks covering half of his face wearing a white overcoat that told me that this guy is a doctor, entered.
Followed by a lady who seemed old but was energetic more than me and a young fellow who was lost somewhere.
Instead of looking at my fractured arm they were gazing at my forehead as if there was a map to eldorado printed there.
then the lady said to the lost fellow pointing her long finger towards my forehead "take it off".
Whoa, the guy bent over my head, took his hand to the back side and unwrapped my new skull which was covered with a bandage about 2 meters in length.
they said turning towards my parents.
we will cut the stuches in a few days.
the moment i heard the door being closed. i asked dad, "papa kahaan kahaan lagi hai mujhe??"
The answer was a long one i'l summarise it for you.
i had a fractured skull, a brain clot, fractured rib, nuckles,collar bone and a vertebral coloumn crushed.

i was on injections and heavy medicines and it took 15 days for me to get fine and doctors told me to go for physiotherapy.
i went there and i realised i could not control the palm of my right hand.
i was sent back to my room. the doctor was back and i was sent for the m.r.i scan immediately. since i was weak i was taken away on a wheel chair.
It was fun lying on the cold tray and being pushed inside the mouth of a huge machine.
told me to close my eyes but i could feel the shades of the light moving over my head.
i came out and the reports were handed to us at the very same moment.
the seriousness of the problem was so much that i was sent bak on a  stretcher.
and was told not to move my neck for 3 days.
the problem was that the C7 coloumn was crushed and was compressing my spinal cord which could get cut if i try to move my neck and that would leave me paralysed for the rest of my life

My college people used to come to the hospital and meet me.And i was in constant touch with the girl i loved at that time and still love.
She was back in jammu and dint know about the accident because my cell was off.
she got to know when one of my very close friend told her.
She used to tell me that u'l fine very soon.
i still love her.
Anyways, after trying a medicine for three days the doctors decided to operate on me.
And i came to know that this was no easy operation the chances of collapsing were there.
30 june i had my operation and i was outside the operation theatre when i told my mum about her.
i just dint want to hide anything from her cause i knew that there are chances that i might not come out of the o.t
Anyways mum was crying, they took me in rolling the stretcher. i entered a big hall. it was like as cold as a cold storage.
the same anesthesiologist was there, he asked me for my name and all and i was unconscious in moments.
i woke uo alone on a bed and made out that it was the i.c.u
i tried to spkeak but i could not.
to operate they slit open my throat and implanted a bone cut from my waist area and covered it with a plate and sealed the skin.
i saw mum coming in i asked for water but i was told that i can't sip or eat anything fer a few days.
2 days later i was shifted to my room.
and in 7 days i started my physiotherapy again.
Now the thing that was bothering me was that i had already missed a practical n 2 final exams were also gone.
If i missed all the 5 exams and a practical, that would be a semester back for me (i won;t b promosted to the next semester!!!).
the next exam was on 7 july, and i missed it too.
Just two exams to go and i still could not sit with my back straight cos i was operated upon my waist and neck.
My girl had her aieee counselling coming close.
we were keeping in touch through text messages i even could not wish her happy b'day. i know how bad and helpless she must be feeling but she was with me, holding my hand and telling me we gonna come out of this very soon.
When she said "we" i just fell in love with her more than anything.
Now it was on me to decide to give the exam or stay back.
I decided that m gonna try.
next morning i told dad he said i better take rest but i was adamant.
Then he had no option to agree he went to my college and then he himself went to the court and all.
He gave in his 100% and arranged a writer for me and all the formalities.
12 morning i left for the exam in the ambulance.
indore roads are less roads more potholes i pained me badly.
chirayu who was my writer was a very helpful guy.
it was basic mechanical engg.
i sat down saw the exam n we started.
after 2hours 30 minutes i gave up.
the pain was at its peak and we had already attempted somewhere around 80% or the paper.
we came out, i discussed my answers with bhaiya and we were sure that m gonna clear this exam.
i reached back, moment i sat down on the wheel chair i got a call from her. i was talking to her and they rolled my chair to the god's idol. she gave me the good news, that i have been wishing for 6 months.
i went to my doctor and was delighted.
I was shifted on my bed.
that lost fellow came in and he cut my stiches.
and next day i was discharged with a bedrest advised for 2 months.
everyone was saying if we are so sure for this exam lets not give the next one. Dunno y i din't agree and gave the next exam too.
WE left for home on 16 morning.
On 16 she left from jammu for her college and we kept messaging throughout the journey.
17 night we reched jammu.
it was midnight, there were so many people who had come to recieve me.
3 different cars were there.
i reached back outside my home , there were neighbours....
i went in and slept when everybody had left.
A few minor operations followed she came back home for 3 days to meet me.
friends came over.
everyone was so supporting...
Even now my right palm is not fine i have developed a new way of holding a pen to write, i have started using my left hand like for eating holding stuff.
i accepted whatever happened and din't cry in front of anyone.
but alone i still cry.
not for what i have lost, but for what i have gained.
life can change in moments.
it did for me too.
AND about that accident, i have now memory ,i don't remember anything, i even couldnot recognise my best friend and many relatives.when i opened my eyes for the first time it had already been 24 hours of i'd say sound sleep....
people say that i was hit by a tempo and slammed head on into the divider.some say i was not touched cause dey thought i was already dead and got to know that i am alive cos they found my heart beating.

PS: i flunked in the exam that we were too sure to clear and managed to clear the next exam.
no advice or golden words for anyone just one thing
WEAR A HELMET!!!
luv u all ... luv u too

Thursday, January 8, 2009

happy new year :)

hello
Happy new year.
it feels good when you are with your friends enjoying the new year's eve, but for me it was different.i was reminiscing the days when i used to celebrate it with my parents.My mother's embracemy brother's giftmy dad's snores(:P).it was a very monotonous way of celebrating the eve. But i used to love it.
30th evening
it was usually at the club where my eyes were always scanning the delicacies.The elders were usually busy with a few games of housie and endless gossips.Anyways i seldom got any bite before anyone.I always found kids there very very humdrum.The girls disscusing some mind-numbing topics like and boys taling about ganguly sachin n length of skirts.I was always interested in the kitchen because i used to have a barrel of laughs with the cook.His bulky tummy always was a reason of laughs between us.Anyways it used to end with the aroma of the sweet dishes.(i always used to have this before the main course meal.)Then MUM N DAD used to get a gift for showing up, like everyone. My brother always was missing when we had to leave soi used to search the monster and hand him over to the cagemaster (read father).
31th Evening
I used to get up early, there was this shortlived excitement in me cos i always thought that this will be a day of merriment and gaietyBy the evening i was usually seen checking out the newspaper for the schedule of special 8-12 movies.the same old way of having dinner the only difference was that my mum used to watch the movie with me and my dad used to give his bestto sleep with open eyes. He always failed though.The movie used to end and the screen of the television was packed with virtual fireworks and happy new year messages.The phonebell used to wake up my dad and tell my mum that i should be back to my bed.
Now that i am in a city far away from my home no one tells me to go to sleep.there are no 8-12 movies.there are no precincts for me to crossthere are no snores (i can't obviously hear mine)i slept at 12:30 this new years and i was missing my home like anything.
but m ought to sayhappy new yearwats happy in this new year when i am away from my family??the monster gave me the perfect answerit's the joy of going back home after six months":)"happy new year
 
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