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Sunday, March 28, 2010

My public love letter :P





To,
My lovely bike

Dear
I miss you so much baby. Just one day more and you'll be back to me.
It has been such a tough time without you. Can you imagine I had to travel in the local bus daily and had to spend forty bucks each day for the auto. Oh! i miss you so much.
You know I had to go and drive someone else's bike, and refuel that too. I know you must not be feeling good about it but trust me, you are still the one and I am still waiting for you,
I didn't like any of those bikes, none treated me the way you do.
One even tried to bang me in the A.T.M door, she refused to stop when i applied the breaks.
1 month seems like lifetime to me.
But now that you recovered well, I promise you we will go on our long drives again, I promise you i'll give you enough fuel.
I hope the mechanic didn't mistreat you, i told him to take proper care of you, and, if you remember i used to visit you everyday to see how much you have recovered.
For the one who tried to put you to ashes, we will deal with him together.
Waiting for you.
I am sending some of your pics to tell you what actually happened and how you have recovered so well

loads of love
yours forever
surbhit
:-*




Sunday, March 21, 2010

ex-pect

There are some questions that can never be answered.
****Why do we start expecting somethings, from some special people???****

I answered this question in different moods, i am sharing my answers

when i was full of anger

YOU SHOULD NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE, NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IS INSIDE YOU, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU DO FOR THEM, IN THE END IT'S ALL ABOUT THEM ONLY

when i was missing someone

THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO BECOME VERY SPECIAL, EXPECTING ANYTHING FROM THEM IS WRONG, JUST KEEP DOING AND EXPRESSING YOUR LOVE FOR THEM, WE DON'T GIFT TO GET GIFTED

when i was in a very practical mood

SOMETHINGS ARE TO BE EXPECTED, IF THEY ARE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS THEY SHOULD REALISE YOUR FEELINGS AND SHOULD SOMETIMES DO SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR YOU, AFTER ALL YOU ARE ALSO GIVING YOURSELF IN.

the best was this,

when i was listening to the song, **i never gonna leave your side, daniel bedingfield**

IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU CAN'T EXPECT, ITS WRONG, AND IN LOVE EVERYTHING COMES APNE AAP SE HI


luv
sub!!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

AFTER BREAKUP FRIENDSHIP, really....


THIS LETTER WAS WRITTEN BY A FRIEND, AFTER WE DISCUSSED THAT HIS GIRL CAN COME BACK TO HIM AS A FRIEND.... HE AGREED AT THAT TIME
A DAY AFTER HE REPLIED


Hello,
The topic we discussed in which you said, that my girl will come back to me and stay as a friend, juat as a friend.
I agreed at that time, but after considering the option, i think I would be doing injustice to her in a way.
If i even agree to the fact that she is "just a friend", then still somewhere in my heart i would be waiting for her to get back, and if that won't happen, then il go back through everything i have done, and may be hurt her emotions again, may be i'll be again the reason for her to accept life without a friend. It's not that i don't want her back in my life.
Today , i have her with me, i have her pics, i have her messages and i have her memories.
I believe that she misses me and she loves me, and hence, everything i do, do it in a way that she is knowing about it and it matters to her what all i do.
Like i started drinking and smoking, but i quit, because i knew she won't like it.
So i think, in a way, m not living without her.
She is there in my heart forever, and may be one day, she will come back to me, like the way she was.
I am very thankful to you that u said that you will pray for us, but i have a request.
I don't believe in prayers, but if you do, and think that your prayer can make any difference, then just do me favor,
pray, that she gets all the happiness in the world, and she marries someone, who can treat her like a princess, because, she really is someone's princess. That's me
Thanks
take care

Thursday, March 11, 2010

From my heart, for yours

its seldom that i get up from my sleep and write something
this is straight from my heart, @ 3 in the nyt , written on the back side of my offer letter

mere ashkon ki kasam hai tujhe
mujhse rooth ke na jaana
dil mein tere jab dard uthe
yaad karke mujhe tu pass bulaana

khafa na hona mujhse
tere bina main tanha hoon
door tujhse main kuch bhi nai
sath tere ek nagma hoon

bin tere ghar bhi ghar nahi
sang hai tere hoon toh koi gam nahi
bhula na mujhe main hi tera mahi hoon
awaaz de tu, main hi terea manjhi hoon
dooriyaan mita de, ab toh mere pass aa
kuch pal hai meri zindagi ke
ab aa inhe jee lein zaraa

meri rahoon pe saathi hai tu
tanha bhi chal sakta hoon, par saath tera ek guzarish hai
is guzarish ko poora karde tu
meri har ek saans ab teri hai
bas apne dil mein rakhle tu

love
sub!!!!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

tears and smiles :)

it was back in 1997, everyone was playing holi, and me, my mum, and my brother had another reason to smile, my dad was coming back from germany in the very same month of march, after staying away from us for the last six months.
My brother was busy with his friends, and me and mum were at my place. i always tried to avoid holi, not because, i din't like it, but because i found it very tiring when after the colors, i had to spend hours to wash them away.
I was helping my mum in the kitchen, when the door bell alarmed us, i went to open the, cautious, not to be targeted by the mob of my friends. what they would is ring the bell, you open the door, and they will color u in a moment.
anyways gathering all my guts, i opened the door..
"namaste uncle" My uncle was standing outside the door.
"namaste beta"
i opened the door and greeted him in, i hugged me and wished me happy holi, i called mumma
He relaxed himself on the couch.
There was someething in his eyes, something was not good.
i felt uneasy , but i was just 9 years old so i had to look at him and i decided to stay mum.
i remember his words

"bhabhi ji, Ajit ka project 3 mahine or chalega, woh ab june tak waapis aaega...."

that was it, before the tear in my eyes could flow down my cheek i saw my mum dropping a tear.
This was the first time i saw her cry, before this it was only me who handled this business.
The evening was quiet, we did not have a telephone then, so my father used to call our neighbours.
Our neighbour called mum, as dad had called them to tell them he will be calling again in 5 mins.
we waited, each tick of the second sent throbs. the phone rang,
aunty was already aware that dad won't be coming this month, they moved out of the room, and my mum cried on the phone...
I was happy to see my brother telling her that its just a mtter of 3 months, he was only 13 years old.
It certainly wasn't a long time, and it was june, the best part was, that we had our holidays, so we went to delhi, at IGI airport to pick him up, the flight was to land at 02:00 am, and we were waiting
It was announced, the flight had landed and a few minutes later i saw my dad, with two huge bags in his trolley going directly inside a shop.
He came out with one more big polybag.
Few years later i came to know that ,that shop is better know as the custom free shop.
The best thing was to see him again after 10 months.

I still have the letters i used to write him, he kept them all, this holi 2010, my mum showed me the letters
The first letter said
"papa, aap mere liye ek remote waali car leke aana, or bahut saari chocolates bhi..."
the last letter said
"papa, aap gift karidne mein time mat waste kariye, jaldi aa jao.."

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

www.surbhitsaxena.com

I don't know if this was needed or not but i had a strong desire to get it.
I was just telling my dad about my hobby and my desire to have my own custom domain, and he gave me his credit card, i got it, done
Thanx pops
i got a new email id too
surbhit@surbhitsaxena.com
lol
happy week, very happy week..
smiles :D
 
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