So this is it, the dates were announced. 7 June 2010. i have my last exam and then we are graduates. In just 10 days from that I will be moving to Delhi. A new place, a new life, new people.

Everything will begin from the scratch. I will take my memories packed in my mind that will help me to get used to the new atmosphere.

Sometimes I wonder that things will be so different. Daily job, formals, professionalism.

No chai cuts, no bike rides, no bunks, no back benches, no punishments. things will be so different. I'll miss so many things, so many people, Some too important for me. No late night CS sessions. One day you get up and walk out, there is no one who gives a damn to you. No one who will wait in the college canteen for you before you enter the class. No one to text you while your class is on.

No first day first shows.

I will miss all of this. I'll miss this city.

I have so much to write, just don't have the words.

tc

cherio

thanx everyone.

GUILTY OR INNOCENT

thanx for tagging me Eksha
RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

Asked someone to marry you? guilty
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? guilty PS: **not smooched**

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
Ever told a lie? Guilty
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty
Kissed a picture? Guilty
Slept in until 5 PM? guilty
Fallen asleep at work/school? GUilty
Held a snake? GUILTY
Been suspended from school? Innocent
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
Stolen from a store? GUILTY
Been fired from a job? Innocent
Done something you regret? Guilty
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent
Kissed in the rain? Innocent
Sat on a roof top? GUILTY
Kissed someone you shouldn't? GUILTY
Sang in the shower? Guilty
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? GUILTY
Shaved your head? Innocent
Had a boxing membership? Innocent
Made a GIRLfriend cry? GUILTY
Been in a band? GUILTY
Shot a gun? GUILTY
Donated Blood? GUILTY
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent
Eaten cheesecake? GUILTY
Still love someone you shouldn’t? INNOCENT
Have/had a tattoo? GUILTY
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
Been too honest? Guilty
Ruined a surprise? Guilty
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent
Joined a pageant? Innocent
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty
Had communication with your ex? GUILTY
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? INNOCENT

PS: MAST THA....

I TAG

1) Shruti didi

2) Ravi

3) Naman

4) Kedar

5) Sneha Bhat

from deep inside

It’s sometime very hard to express what you feel.

Something inside your heart takes a lot to travel the path from heart to mouth.

It’s the same case with me. I feel a lot for different people but it’s not easy for me to express it. My behaviour has caused me to break my relations and at the same time to strengthen some too. I have many drafts saved which were started when I wanted to thank someone who did something good, but then, like now and forever they will be just drafts. There is a story that revolves around surbhit saxena. The story that changes everyday. Some actors stay in this, some leave soon, and some become an integral part of this fiction scripted by his almighty.

I being the centre point of the story want to say so much but my scriptwriter didn’t give me that power to express what is in my heart. I feel so helpless sometimes. I love but I can’t express my love, I care but can’t show you how much I care. Sometimes everything diminishes into a single word that reads “loser”, and at that moment there comes a hand from behind me, telling me not to give up, to get up and fight back and win what is destined to be mine. I want to say thank you to this hand but then again I can’t.

I get a hug and I want to make it last forever, the hug is about to end but I don’t want it to end, my mind asks me if there is anyway that I can stay in these arms forever and again I can’t answer. I miss someone and I want to call but I can’t call, I don’t want to disturb anyone, I don’t want to be the reason of pain for anyone. My life takes a new turn every moment. I keep accepting things until one day I give up. I say I quit and again an inspiration crosses me. I get up and fight back again, and I fail, I fall.

Then I find two people standing by my side to pick me up and put me up on my feet and give me the strength to walk this road again and live my script.

I have so much inside me. Don’t know when I will be able to let it out and tell the ones I love. Tell them what is inside my heart for them.

give me some room :P

This journey began on august 20^th 2006, I was on my way to Yol in Himachal Pradesh. On the way I got a call on my cell. “Your college commences on first September.”

ROOM 1

(September 2006 - June 2007)

73 Sidharth nagar

Indore

It was already decided that I’ll share my room with Rohit Ahuja.

Who is Rohit?

He is a person who has seen me grow up. My dad and his have been friends before marriage and we were in the same housing society. So he is like my elder brother.

I reached Indore on 30^th August, so it was still one complete day for me to explore the city before I had to show myself up in college.

On 30^th night, I was taught how to play three card poker. Next day it was movie time for me. We went to a movie in the nearby Cineplex.

It was fun being with Rohit Bhaiya and his group of friends, I was treated very well and I still remember how each and everyone played a different role in teaching me the lessons of life. It was fun I still miss al of them.

ROOM 2

(September 2007-March 2008)

7, Dayanand Nagar

Indore

Ashish, my classmate and my friend was my next roommate. It was during my accident days when he used to stop by and help me with some studies. Once I came back to the room, things were a little bit different. He was usually busy with his work all day long so most of the time was spend with me being online. The loneliness was effecting me and I found some friends in my physios. My friend Ishaan used to visit me with his roommate Sunil. I had some fun time with Ishaan, used to go out with him, but it effected my studies to a great extent. All in all this room was not what anyone would want from a room in college life.

ROOM 3

(March 2008- Till date)

35 C

Main Indrapuri

Indore

It was with Ishaan and Sunil. We three were looking for a new house so we decided to this one. It was awesome, Sunil was a wonderful cook. I loved his paranthas. We would talk for long and have fun together. Me and Ishaan would spend most of our times at Mc Donald’s. Sunil was a little bit different. Kind of serious types. He would spend his time reading the newspaper or studying.

My friend from Jammu Tushar also moved in and it was 3 moths we four stayed together and had loads of fun. Then Sunil felt a need to change the room and decided that he will be moving with a college friend of his.

Fine with me and Ishaan, it was just Tushar me and Ishaan.

Then it was Ishaan’s junior who was searching for a room and he asked to share the room with us for 2 months.

Trideep moved in and before the two months were over me and Ishaan were impressed by his simple, honest and cooperative attitude.

We both had a talk and decided to ask him if he wants to stay. Tushar me Ishaan and Trideep. Then Rohit bhaiya’s cousin Kunal moved to Indore and took a room nearby.

Tushaar decided to change the room, the reason for this still not figured out. Me Trideep Ishaan are now roomies and we have loads of fun. No common account, high level of cooperation and really understanding.

Kunal also stays at our place all day long, would only go back to his place to sleep.

This is real fun.

I’ll miss everyone but three guys the most

Ishaan, Trideep and Kunal

Signing off

Surbhit

PS: our landlord are still unaware of Trideep. Just to save some rent :P

My public love letter :P

To,

My lovely bike

Dear

I miss you so much baby. Just one day more and you'll be back to me.

It has been such a tough time without you. Can you imagine I had to travel in the local bus daily and had to spend forty bucks each day for the auto. Oh! i miss you so much.

You know I had to go and drive someone else's bike, and refuel that too. I know you must not be feeling good about it but trust me, you are still the one and I am still waiting for you,

I didn't like any of those bikes, none treated me the way you do.

One even tried to bang me in the A.T.M door, she refused to stop when i applied the breaks.

1 month seems like lifetime to me.

But now that you recovered well, I promise you we will go on our long drives again, I promise you i'll give you enough fuel.

I hope the mechanic didn't mistreat you, i told him to take proper care of you, and, if you remember i used to visit you everyday to see how much you have recovered.

For the one who tried to put you to ashes, we will deal with him together.

Waiting for you.

I am sending some of your pics to tell you what actually happened and how you have recovered so well

loads of love

yours forever

surbhit

:-*

ex-pect

There are some questions that can never be answered.

****Why do we start expecting somethings, from some special people???****

I answered this question in different moods, i am sharing my answers

when i was full of anger

YOU SHOULD NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE, NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IS INSIDE YOU, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU DO FOR THEM, IN THE END IT'S ALL ABOUT THEM ONLY

when i was missing someone

THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO BECOME VERY SPECIAL, EXPECTING ANYTHING FROM THEM IS WRONG, JUST KEEP DOING AND EXPRESSING YOUR LOVE FOR THEM, WE DON'T GIFT TO GET GIFTED

when i was in a very practical mood

SOMETHINGS ARE TO BE EXPECTED, IF THEY ARE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS THEY SHOULD REALISE YOUR FEELINGS AND SHOULD SOMETIMES DO SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR YOU, AFTER ALL YOU ARE ALSO GIVING YOURSELF IN.

the best was this,

when i was listening to the song, **i never gonna leave your side, daniel bedingfield**

IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU CAN'T EXPECT, ITS WRONG, AND IN LOVE EVERYTHING COMES APNE AAP SE HI

luv

sub!!!

AFTER BREAKUP FRIENDSHIP, really....

THIS LETTER WAS WRITTEN BY A FRIEND, AFTER WE DISCUSSED THAT HIS GIRL CAN COME BACK TO HIM AS A FRIEND.... HE AGREED AT THAT TIME

A DAY AFTER HE REPLIED

Hello,

The topic we discussed in which you said, that my girl will come back to me and stay as a friend, juat as a friend.

I agreed at that time, but after considering the option, i think I would be doing injustice to her in a way.

If i even agree to the fact that she is "just a friend", then still somewhere in my heart i would be waiting for her to get back, and if that won't happen, then il go back through everything i have done, and may be hurt her emotions again, may be i'll be again the reason for her to accept life without a friend. It's not that i don't want her back in my life.

Today , i have her with me, i have her pics, i have her messages and i have her memories.

I believe that she misses me and she loves me, and hence, everything i do, do it in a way that she is knowing about it and it matters to her what all i do.

Like i started drinking and smoking, but i quit, because i knew she won't like it.

So i think, in a way, m not living without her.

She is there in my heart forever, and may be one day, she will come back to me, like the way she was.

I am very thankful to you that u said that you will pray for us, but i have a request.

I don't believe in prayers, but if you do, and think that your prayer can make any difference, then just do me favor,

pray, that she gets all the happiness in the world, and she marries someone, who can treat her like a princess, because, she really is someone's princess. That's me

Thanks

take care